Yesterday was a difficult day for me.  I can't go into details BUT let's just put it this way.  The circumstances of some trials don't necessarily have to be revealed in order to explain the agony of a trial.  People can have different circumstances but similar agonizing trials of course.  I know the agony Jesus went through on the cross when He felt abandoned by His Father, our Heavenly Father can never be compared to what we go through in life.  To speak about it in order to communicate those difficult trials we go through is okay.  We have to know that He went through much much more than we could ever go through.  And He did it for us.

What I went through yesterday may be closely compared to those feeling Jesus had when He was abandoned by God briefly as He was on the cross dying for our sins, carrying the weight of the world.  But it was a sliver of the abandoned feelings that He felt.

He not only went through these horrible things so we we could be forgiven completely for our sins but so we would KNOW that He has been through them for us and can related to what we go through in life at times.

Things got progressively better later in the day yesterday and I am fine today.   I KNOW what I went through yesterday was okay.  I just do NOT like going through them.

But like Jesus can relate to agony I now again to relate to more agony.   I have already experienced enough agony in my opinion for my lifetime too numerous to mention here but many know my story.  Hey Lord!  uh....excuse me....could we just get on now with the abundant life part of your promises  LOL.  That would be really cool Lord!  Thank you!

Falling in Love

Is a pain in the ass

It's totally and amazingly beautiful

Then,

it's like

drugs when one side just doesn't get it, doesn't see it and
fails to engage........

the crash and burn is hard and painful........

Screw it!

Happy New Year! It's Time To Stop Spreading Myself Too Thin!

I'm not into New Year's Resolutions, but if there was one I should make it would be to stop spreading myself too thin. If you know me, have observed me and my on-line work, or track my websites, blogs, etc. you would see from the obvious that I am one person who definitely does not publish a lot of "content". Well rather than getting down on myself because that's definitely not good for anyone's progress in life, I would rather look at this from a positive standpoint and use it for correcting the road ahead. So, making a story out of it is the best thing for me and others that may feel stuck at times as I have been.

The problem I see for myself is many fold of course and hopefully by sharing my thoughts on this will help me self-correct and do better for the year ahead beginning this first day of the new 2010 year! In the past because of job commitments has been one of my problems for thin content. I do make excuses don't I? Another excuse I make for myself is blaming it on being attention deficit. How bout just plain laziness? Or having too much fun twittering, facebooking, visiting blogtalkradio friend host shows. I can really laugh out loud at what excuses I have for being content thinly spread!

Another excuse I make for myself is that of the eight full-time years in college and grammar school is that I didnt' pay attention and am very inadequate when it comes to my writing ability and such. This is a big one! I can blame it on those years but what's my excuse for not studying now and learning over what I was suppose to learn then.

Here's another really big one but still can get by with it when I have been learning for two years now from some of the best teachers but I use it still anyway....I have been a political dunce. That was a Snooperism by the way. Mark Harvey aka Snooper has been one of my most favorite of teachers.

Fear! Fear is a very good excuse for not stepping out and taking the chance of being a fool in the name of Patriotism. I need to definitely eliminate this excuse of fear!

Procrastination is a big one! Wow, being the perfectionist that I am procrastination goes hand in hand with perfectionism. Is that a lame excuse or what? How many excuses do I have now for my thinly spread content on the web? Let's see...eleven so far. It seems there is at least one or more. Oh! Here it is! Going back to the first excuse of job commitment now that I am in between jobs and have more time to blog and write better content I now am distracted by wondering what's up ahead? Does that sound like, the house needs to be clean before I can really concentrate and write? Similar excuses.

Well, I am at the end of this evaluation of spreading myself too thin. I hope this may possible help any readers that have been stuck in the same situation. I know there are a few more just lingering in the back of my head and will come back to add then if I'm led. But I am going to seriously try harder this brand new year to do it all better!

I pray you all have a very blessed new year! Be safe, be healthy, be prosperous!